I always have a lot on my mind. Things I should have said, but thought of later. Stupid inventions. Fantasies I want to share with just one person. I can't sleep because of it. I bite my nails. I have a lot of tension in my back. I grind my teeth at night. Some would say I need help, but I think I just need companionship. I am not fat or ugly or anything like that. I have acne, which I am sure nobody really cares about, but me. When I look at my face that's all I see. I blame it on the thyroid meds I take, but sometimes, after a long night at work, I don't feel like washing my face. Or brushing my teeth. I feel like my world is spinning. I can't keep one thought in my head long enough to articulate it. I am lost in my head. I get a great idea, but forget it a minute later. It takes me a million years to tell a story, because I talk about other things at the same time...tangents and the point of my story is lost. I have a superiority complex...the one I hate in other people. Don't worry, I hate this trait in myself as well. I am too strong and strong willed for my own good. People who are getting to know me think I am great, but then I become an asshole to some. I really can't stand a lot of people because they remind me of myself. I hate being talked down to. I may not have a degree, but I am intelligent. (This is where I make a really stupid spelling mistake.) Once again, so much going through my tiny brain, that I can't even be coherent. The purpose of this blog is to let it all out. I don't know if anyone will ever read it. I have made it available to everyone, but I don't read random blogs unless I am invited, so why would anyone read this. More about me tomorrow...if I can remember my user name and pass word.