Sleeping Naked and Other Fabulous Fantasies

I haven't slept naked in such a long time. If I do, I am inviting HIM to touch me. It makes my stomach turn to think about it. Like last night, I showed HIM some pics on my phone that were a little sexy....to HIM that means, Fuck Yeah, I'm gonna get some. Is it all men who think sex is intimacy? They are wrong. Intimacy is so different. I need intimacy. I WANT to be fucked!!!!!! I want to sleep naked and wake up in the middle of the night and make love, roll over in his arms and sleep some more, then do it again in the morning. Morning breath wouldn't matter because this is a fantasy and things like that don't happen in fantasies. Why can't he let me go and move on? Why can't I figure out why in the world he still "loves" me? What does love mean? Is it just comfort? Or is it pure happiness every time he walks into the room? I want to want my man. I want to jump him every time I see him. Kiss him and nap with him. Hear the sharp, startled intake of breath when he wakes from the nap, looks around and realizes that he just napped. Heartbeat, gentle breathing, warm body, arms strong enough to push all the bad away. (I'm still fantasizing here, definitely not reality...) And since this is fantasy, he could make me cum with his dick, not his tongue. Don't get me wrong, oral is good, but it just can't sustain a girl forever. If I was on my own, could I be alone? Or am I one of those girls who needs a man all the time? I am certainly very independent, but I want to be vulnerable too. I want to have a MAN around who lets me be scared, lonely, and unhappy every once in a while. He also lets me do the heavy lifting sometimes, but not ALL the time. Back to the sex, I love a man who will interlace his fingers with mine and hold my hands while we make love. I love the weight of a man, not the overweight though. I love to be desired. So how long to wait to see if things get better? Forever? Will it help if I don't daydream about all the other men in my life? How long 'til I can sleep naked again?