It's the big M.D.

The dreaded day has arrived.HE gave me a ...Thank you card? I don't get it. If HE chose that beause he knows that I hate the commercialism of M.D., then why even support Hallmark at all? A Thank You Card? The boys gave me a mothers day card and A1 gave me a crocheted pot holder and A2 gave me a hand made book mark, which is perfect because i just bought new books. I am pretty into all of the books i bought. I forget how much I love to read and I never realize how carried away I become in outside life until i have to remember that I love reading. So desperate to get out, I forget to go in sometimes. I spent all day away from my kids. They went out and when I knew they would come back in, I went out. I went to K's (the K stands for her real name, but I call her by a nickname, so K will henceforth be known as D, cuz I get confused, plus my littlest one is K) to swim while she and her family were out. It was a perfect afternoon. I was safe, I could read and swim and get out and feel relaxed, even if it was only for 2 hours. I may have hit on something there. Safety. Could it be that I don't feel safe when HE is around? I don't mean physical harm, although I could probably take someone in a fight before HE could. I mean , safe from anger, name calling, accusing eyes, rumor starting, HIS eminating depression and so on. Nah, that's just an excuse. I just don't want to feel guilt. Lost my thoughts. A1 was digesting loudly and couldn't sleep cuz the grumble was too much. Gave him water, read the LCC and tried to come back here. No go. Bis morgan.