Such a Baby

This pain is intolerable. I can't stand this weight in my chest anymore. I want her near. I want her to hold me and tell me there's been a mistake and we can go on happy, because we weren't unhappy. She's just as raw as I am, hurting just as bad. I think that makes it worse that she's hurting so bad, because I am hurting worse cuz she is. Fucking no win circle. I am sleeping alone again tonight. Crying myself to sleep again. I should be all dried up. When will it stop feeling like my world is collapsing in on my chest and pushing the air right out of me?